I am an Army wife, I am an Army reserve wife that is. Actually I’m not even a wife yet. Me and Jake have been together for 5 years and have lived together for 3. We had planned to get married 11*11*11. It may be sooner. We’re not sure yet. But hubs has made a big choice. I big choice that is gonna take a lot of getting use to, a lot of changes will he made, and a lot of time together lost.
Yesterday he decided that he was going to go back active duty. 3 of the other soldiers at his unit put in to go active in December and were shipped out before Christmas. He is going today to do the paperwork so he will more than likely be shipped out by the end of next month. It could possibly be this month. I would rather it be next month though. We’re not married so Mali and I will not be going with him. Even if we were married Mali and I still wouldn’t be able to go right away. Anyone who knows someone in the army or have served themselves knows how slow they process paperwork on things like that. The only time they hurry is when it benefits them in some way.
I am very supportive of his decision. I just wish I had a little more time to prepare myself. The idea came up yesterday and he said he was doing it today. He has already talked to the commander and he will be talking to him again today. I am not prepared in no way for this. I am in a bind and I am not going to let this stop hubs from doing what he wants. I am just worried for mine and Mali’s sake. I just recently lost my job and no one is hiring. I am afraid I may have to move back in with my parents. I love them but I enjoy having my own space. I don’t like living with them. I am taking things one day at a time now and just hoping for something to come along before he leave us. I am now going to have to be the one providing by myself and I’m not sure where to start. I know getting a job is a start but I live in a small town where jobs are few and far in between unless you drive an hour or more to work. I can’t drive an hour or more, I don’t even drive. I have got so much to do this month its really stressful. I am happy for hubs but inside way down deep I am hurting and stressing.
I love hubs and I am glad he is doing something he wants for once. Mali and I are going to really miss him. I know he will be safe. I am thankful he isn’t going over seas. Its just going to be hard being away from his for long periods of time. We have been together every day for over a year and I was definitely spoiled to it. I’m hoping the time we have to be away from each other flies by. We both are but we know in the long run this will be good for the 3 of us. I’m just trying to stay strong and show my support.